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This list is in order.

1. Electric Guitar

2. Saxophone (very close to #1)

3. Trumpet

4. Piano

5. Drums

6. Acoustic Guitar

7. Violin

8. Clarinet

9. French Horn

10. Flute

Please note that many "celebs" mentioned are tech celebs and therefore will only be known by the smart/better half of the tech community out there, so yea either google them or ignore it, but inb4 all the who the fuck is that crap, I figured I would say that.

This list is not in order yet, nor is it complete, eventually it will be in order and complete, but this is just a really rough draft, and it is possible over time before the final version more people will be added. Not everyone has commentary, eventually everyone will, and haha some of the commentary will become more intelligent over time too. And finally the final draft of this will have the names being a different color than the commentary on the person.

ATM I do not have the time/energy to stress the really, really important people, but I wish I did, b/c IDK I would hope it would say something about me, haha something good, but either way here's my list ...

1. Veronica Belmont (OMG! if you don't know now, you will never know! block can suck it! I guess this is just something that can't be explained, she can not be explained, and my draw to her can't be explained. Also yea she is certainly #1 on my list. I would give almost anything to meet her, not sure what happens once I do, but holy shit!)

diana agron (I must know for certain if she is human or an angel, haha lame, but half serious here, never seen any woman light up as much as she does, even through the fuckin' TV she gives off the most amazing vibe ever! yea call me insane if you wish, but I know what I am talking about! that said I would hate for this to all be ruined in person, but I hardly doubt it would be, unless of course I stared at her too intensely and perhaps drooled all over her as well, but otherwise my bet is that it would go really well)

danica mckellar (if you know anything about her at all, then well yea that pretty much says everything, and if you don't, shame on you, and go get learned!)

gordon ramsey (umm I do not have the words right now, but DAMN! he is certainly not a bastard as he is depicted in quick commercials for his shows, that said he did cheat on his wife and I will never get over that, but still he tops my list of people to meet, easily top 10, perhaps even 5)

katy perry (and then I wish to hug her all day long, preferably with my clothes off, but I will take what I can get, OMG she is like the perfect medicine, she is vicodin in human form, and OMG do I wish to swallow her! ;-)

david wright (man crush? haha but yea I don't need a reason! he's a lovely man =)

ellen degeneres (just seeing her brings me joy, but her comedy is amazing, and like IDK, I just love this woman, top 10 as well for people I wish to meet!)

Alica Keys (brilliant woman, brilliant artist)

kevin rose (again! and I need alone time with the man, LMFAO, not for those reasons, eeewww, although a longer hug would be great, hmm yea I mean come on this guy is like so much to me, him and leo, but more so him b/c he was near my age, he is 50% of the reason I got into tech, leo another 25% and my cousin the other 25%)

stephanie chu (again! but this time like IDK I wish I could converse with her and hug her and OMG, you have no clue!)

cassie steele (she wouldn't like me, but I still wish to sleep in a sleeping bag with her!)

jason calicanis (say what you will about the guy, but he is brilliant, and has been an inspiration to me, there was a time I hated his guts too, but I am over that, still disagree with some of his umm words/practices, but overall I truly respect and admire him)

JLH (she is sort of losing her hottness, but damn I have always felt so umm I suppose close to her)

mandy moore (omg do I love this woman!)

Leo Laporte (wow that would be an honor! he means so much to me, I have 1 issue with him, no 2, but I suppose this is not the place for airing those issues)

patrick norton

donald trump (call me stupid/crazy, IDC, I like the bastard!)

Jessica Alba (while I would most certainly die, there are so many reasons to meet her besides touching extreme hotness ... being serious)

emmy rossum (although almost not good enough to be in her presense)

bill gates (eh, haha)

steve frickin' jobs (wow what a love/hate relationship I have with him, and haha boy would he hate my guts, but the guy, although maybe a little crazy, is frickin' brilliant, in so many ways. I have soooooo much respect for him!)

alton brown (hello food frickin' genius!)

will smith (perhaps my all time favorite actor, IDK)

harry connick jr. (just seems like a frickin' incredible human being, super awesome, nice, and talented, and helpful and if he is anything close to the light I see him in, I would be honored to meet him in person!)

craig ferguson (simply put anyone who makes me laugh like he does is worth meeting IMO, but honestly the fact he is so comfortable saying & doing the shit he does, well I actually find it admirable as well)

dane cook (while he needs more material, he is pretty damn cool w/ most his fans & he thinks like me, so yea)

kevin smith (this would either go really well, or really bad, as people, what we both think and do, hmm like so agreeable and disagreeable on such extremes it is crazy, but surely he is an incredibly interesting man)

barack obama (ask me why in 7 more years, perhaps 12, but yea only president I wish to meet, perhaps only to force him to read books to me, haha or perhaps not)

morgan webb (sob b4 I die please, just think about it, haha OMG I met morgan webb, just to be able to say that, her and her stupid husband, arrrggg, anyway I will meet her whenever, but b4 she loses all her looks would be cool too)

alison haislip (God is she fun! LMAO ;-)

Nikole Zivalich (idk possibly we would be like best friends, or perhaps not, I feel like I have known her way before The Game Show {seriously where the hell is she from?} and I love that she is strongly opinionated, hmm IDK confusing woman)

terri hatcher (well she was my first celeb crush ever I believe, that is reason enough for me)

danny devito

john travolta

michael dell (so I can shake his hand, and then scream at him, and then ask him 4000 questions)

robin williams

vince vaughn (although IDK, he hates technology/computers for one thing, IDK how this would actually go, but I just think there is almost no-one better (as far as men go) to watch on screen in a movie, except michael cera and will smith)

carrie underwood

roger chang (interest man, would love to pick his brain for hours)

molly wood (of all women in tech, if we put looks aside and other things that may influence me, than perhaps of the more famous women in tech she is my favorite and the smartest out there. the way she thinks and breaks things down is just brilliant, and sometimes hilarious. She sees shit how it should be seen, calls it like it is, and sooooo much respect for her. If I was looking for a woman in tech opinion about something, I would be a moron not to go to her first)

tom merrit

emma watson

gwen stefani (b/c she is a super creative type & mind and during the no doubt years her as a person & artist in the true meaning of the word, just blew me away)

rachael ray (I have loved this woman for so long, but lately confused about her, but still would love to meet her)

rachel bilson (fucking BILSON! hello)

rachel mcadams (one of the most gorgeous human beings ever, and hmm yea I just have to know her real personality, I would guess it is amazing! but I suppose one could never know for sure, but this is why I must meet her)

dan trachenberg (lalalala he acts and thinks like me sometimes, he is a super Jew, and he's a super geek, and hmm, yea OMG I would hang with him forever! and that is coming from a guy who dislikes 99% of men!)

jeff cannata (well nothing to fascinating about this man, sorry, but I respect him so much as he is the brains and glue of the entire The Totally Rad Show, & while I suppose that is argueable, I umm know I am correct in that statement, so yea how could I not wish to meet him)

michele trachenberg (she seems super cool, and like a fun time)

mariah carey (not sure how this would go, but yea I suppose I really would want to shake her hand if I had the chance)

celine dion (eh wish she wasn't so weird, but OMG her music, IDK, either way it would be an honor)

barbra streisand (insane talent must be met!)

conan obrien

evangiline lily (omg is this like the coolest woman ever! one of the few women on this list that I wish to be glued to, and haha not entirely for sexual reasons, in fact very little for sexual reasons with silly lily, and that says a lot considering how good looking she is)

amanda bynes (been obsessed with her forever, in her much later years she has become even more interesting/fascinating, would love to hang out with her for at least an entire day)

Matt Damon (haha soooooo many reasons I wish to meet him, won't get into them, but I will say I am his biggest male fan for I am the only person out there not under appreciating him, LMFAO)

lea michele (although she would probably eat me alive, wait nothing bad about that, but honestly not sure how this would go, but I am so drawn to everything about her, so fucking talented and interesting. but if she is a bitch or was a bitch to me, OMG my heart would break, so just fear meeting her as well, it would be like finding out Santa is not real)

Luria Petrucci aka Cali Lewis

Martin Scorsese (OMG do I love this man, seen a few of his movies, like 5 perhaps, and loved them of course, but forget his movies, this is really about him as a person, what he believes, what he has done, how he thinks, OMG just love him, would be an honor for like 400 different reasons)

Robert De Niro

steven spielberg (I have many thoughts about this man, but ATM can't share them)

josh groban

eminem (I feel as if I have to justify this, but IDK if I have the words to)

tom green (wow I sort of grew up with him, sometimes, not all the time he thinks like I do, he has made me laugh so much, and while he is super fucked up and strange, I really do have respect for him for some odd reason. That respect grew more when I saw how real of a person he was when he was setting up his own TV station from his house online, and would connect with the chat room to ask for advice/help and to just literally chat with people, it was a really awesome experience. HAHA he has done a few things I disagree with, but yea overall IDK there is just a place in my mind & heart for this man, as crazy as that is)

emma roberts

Scott Johnson

Neha Tiwari

Adam Sessler

chris hardwick

nikki reed (gorgeous brilliant fucking {Jewish, haha} woman!)

alyson hannigan (brings me joy, seems like she would be super cool IRL)

Jim Parsons (anyone who plays a character so fucking well, brilliantly, well I just have to meet to see if said person IRL is even close to being as hmm amazing as said character, if even in different ways)

kevin pereria (hello cable's television darling, but hmm IDK meeting cool awesome people is a good idea, actually besides that, his sense of humor as well)

dave randolph (another genius, just wish to pick his brain)

cady mcclain (God do I love this woman!)

vanessa lengies (IDK something about this woman! been saying this since American Dreams, and well every time I see her she sends sparks through me)

tony danza (have always loved this man, IDK if said love is misplaced though, I suppose meeting him would be the only way to find out)

natalie portman (DUH!)

Yea the title basically explains it. This list is in order. Perfect in size and overall shape. Crazy thing about this list is most the women on it are legitimate female geeks, I wonder what that means.

1. Veronica Belmont (absolute perfection!)

2. Alison Haislip (almost absolute perfection, off by 1%)

3. Cali Lewis

4. Katy Perry (holy moly batman! =)

5. Stephanie Chu (I feel bad putting her on the list b/c this is kind of a perverted blog post, and I really respect this woman, also sorry she is not higher on the list, but yea. She is such a sweetheart, I feel so damn bad, OH well, all my lists must remain true)

6. Kaley Cuoco (although she should be banned from this list seeing as how I believe she has implants)

7. (Silly) Evangeline Lilly

8. Jessica Alba

9. Rachel McAdams

10. Blake Lively (a little on the big side for boobs, but great shape and some of the best cleavage in the world)

IDK if all of these are technically considered to be in the rap/hip hop category/genre, but IDC. The first 30 are in order from most favorite to least, after that they are in random order. And no I couldn't do 50, doing 60 was hard enough, I wanted to only do 25 originally, but I have like 600+ songs of this genre on my computer/ipod, so yea.

1. Nelly - Country Grammar (I doubt anything will ever come close)

2. Kanye West - Through The Wire

3. DMX - X Gon Give It To Ya

4. Kanye West - Jesus walks

5. Fabolous - Breathe

6. Big Boi - I'm On It

7. Jay-Z - 99 Problems

8. Nelly - Air Force Ones

9. Eminem - Superman

10. Nelly - Ride With Me

11. Ja Rule ft Ashanti - Always On Time 

12. Eve - Let me blow your mind

13. Terror Squad - Take Me Home

14. Ludacris - Stand Up

15. Jay-Z - Can I Get A Fuck You

16. Eminem - Guilty Conscience

17. T.I feat. Kanye West, Jay-Z & Lil Wayne - Swagga Like Us

18. Eminem - Real Slim Shady

19. Twista ft Kanye West & Jamie Foxx - Slow Jamz

20. Ja Rule - Livin' It Up

21. DMX - Party up

22. Dr. Dre ft Eminem - Forgot About Dre

23. Kanye West ft T - Pain- Good Life

24. Eminem - Lose Yourself

25. Busta Rhymes ft Lloyd Banks, Papoose, DMX, Mary J. Blige, Rah Digga, & Missy Elliott - Touch It (Remix)

26. Ludacris - Rollout aka My Business

27. Cassidy - I'm a Hustla

28. Kanye West - All Falls Down (I'm so self conscience, that's why you always see me with at least 1 of my watches =)

29. Jay-Z - Hard Knock Life (Ghetto Anthem)

30. LLoyd Banks ft 50 Cent - Porno Star

31. Kanye West ft Jay-Z - Diamonds From Sierra Leone

32. Nas - Revolutionary Warfare

33. DMX - The Rain

34. Ja Rule - Furious

35. Jay-Z ft Rihanna & Kanye West - Run This Town

36. Drake ft Kanye West, Eminem & Lil Wayne - Forever

37. LeCrea ft Trip Lee - Jesus Muzik

38. Chamillionaire ft Krayzie Bone - Ridin' Dirty

39. Trick Daddy ft Lil Jon - Let's Go

40. T.I - A.S.A.P

41. T.I - What You Know

42. T.I - Dead and Gone

43. T.I ft Rihanna - Life Your life

44. Lil Jon ft Ying Yang Twins - Get Low

45. Flo Rida - Get Low

46. P.Diddy - Bad Boys For Life

47. Chris Brown ft Lil Wayne - I Can Transfom Ya

48. Lil Scrappy - No Problem

49. 50 Cent ft Snoop Dogg - P.I.M.P

50. Ja Rule - Holla Holla

51. Lil Jon ft Lil Scrappy - What You Gon Do

52. Jay-Z - Big Pimpin'

53. Ludacris - What's Your Fantasy

54. Ludacris ft Field Mob - Georgia (would be in my top 30 if not 15 if not for the annoying fucking word Georgia repeating 4000x in the background)

55. Fabolous - Yo Can't Deny It

56. Ludacris ft LL Cool J & Kieth Murray - Fatty Girl

57. Trick Daddy - I'm a Thug

58. Usher ft Lil Jon & Ludacris - Yeah

59. Pitbull - Dammit Man

60. Kanye West ft Lupe Fiasco - Touch The Sky

that most likely college will not work out, so I need to focus on a special talent ability & move as high up the ladder as fast as possible with that skill.

With computers I have some leg room, but not much, and only slightly more with a higher education. That said with biology or my distant third passion psychology, it would be really hard to move anywhere in those fields without a lot more higher education =/.

It's at this point in my life that I regret not really focusing in on any sports, if I could get my asthma under control, I believe their are several sports I could have been incredible in, but my guess is it is too late for all of that now. So I have something with computers, or somehow breaking out of my many, many, many hard shells and getting a shot at becoming an actor, otherwise I may just be screwed. I do not have many talents, and the ones I do have, well 40% of them involve a bed, and I do not wish to be a porn star, so LMAO =D

Athletes have it made, especially none Olympic athletes who get paid based on their name, and not entirely their skill, meaning Derek Jeter can be signed for a 22 million dollar contract, and they have to pay him that whether he hits the damn ball or not for that entire year. Which I find to be bullshit, but whatever.

Olympic athletes have to not only make a name for themselves, but maintain it, b/c a sponsor (which is how they make most their money) can drop them like a fly if they suck, but w/e most these Olympians are made for life as well.

The real question is, at what point does society (or just my father, haha) look past the fact you do not have a college education, and see you as a success. And is it based on the salary you have made for yourself, or other factors as well? 

Maybe it is better to have not made any money, barely be making enough to sustain yourself, but maybe you have sacrificed your life to help hundreds or thousands or millions of people across the world. Would society not view you as successful then? and would they look past the fact I did not complete college?

I think how most the world gets caught up on the whole must complete college thing is bullshit, the world is changing and is not working how it used to. College is not the be all, end all, it's just so hard when you have society as a whole, but especially your parents (or parent) believing so strongly that it is the be all, end all. 

Too me college education while still important to me, is not as important as getting a career that makes me happy, where I look forward to go to work every day with a huge smile on my face. 

Making a lot of money, enough to support myself and family, and treat them and myself to the luxuries of life, as well as give back to those less fortunate is what is most important, and IDC how I get there, as long as I get there, and to me college isn't necessary in most the paths, and well I wish it wasn't necessary for all the paths, and maybe one day it will not be.

Certain jobs should always require a high college degree, teaching being one of them, for most subjects. That said as for most other jobs, it should all be skill based, and I do not think the employer should even look at the academic history of the person they are looking to hire.

I could go on forever about this (shocking right, haha), but to sum this all up, I will just say I think it is BULLSHIT (that's putting it kindly) that in many ways, in many cases, I am unable to be successful for 2 reasons. The fact I do not have money to get any of my ideas started and off the ground (yea a few work arounds for that, but let's leave those out of the equation for now)

and the fact that I am surrounded by a TON of people that will never, ever let me live down not graduating from college with at least a bachelors degree. And that shit is doing so much additional damage to me, and holding me back so much further than I should be, but no-one could ever understand that, especially the people who are pushing so hard for my "success"  in their eyes. 

If they just let me go for my success in my eyes years back, instead of pushing me towards shit I can't do for multiple reasons, and shit that literally has almost killed me multiple times (me and school of any sort do not mix well, and we'll leave it at that). Then who the fuck knows where I would be right now, definitely no-where near the bullshit life I am living right now. That said of course not everything wrong in my life can be blamed on others, but honestly about 80% of it easily can! =/