What has become very clear to me is ...
Sunday, February 21, 2010 at 2:41AM that most likely college will not work out, so I need to focus on a special talent ability & move as high up the ladder as fast as possible with that skill.
With computers I have some leg room, but not much, and only slightly more with a higher education. That said with biology or my distant third passion psychology, it would be really hard to move anywhere in those fields without a lot more higher education =/.
It's at this point in my life that I regret not really focusing in on any sports, if I could get my asthma under control, I believe their are several sports I could have been incredible in, but my guess is it is too late for all of that now. So I have something with computers, or somehow breaking out of my many, many, many hard shells and getting a shot at becoming an actor, otherwise I may just be screwed. I do not have many talents, and the ones I do have, well 40% of them involve a bed, and I do not wish to be a porn star, so LMAO =D
Athletes have it made, especially none Olympic athletes who get paid based on their name, and not entirely their skill, meaning Derek Jeter can be signed for a 22 million dollar contract, and they have to pay him that whether he hits the damn ball or not for that entire year. Which I find to be bullshit, but whatever.
Olympic athletes have to not only make a name for themselves, but maintain it, b/c a sponsor (which is how they make most their money) can drop them like a fly if they suck, but w/e most these Olympians are made for life as well.
The real question is, at what point does society (or just my father, haha) look past the fact you do not have a college education, and see you as a success. And is it based on the salary you have made for yourself, or other factors as well?
Maybe it is better to have not made any money, barely be making enough to sustain yourself, but maybe you have sacrificed your life to help hundreds or thousands or millions of people across the world. Would society not view you as successful then? and would they look past the fact I did not complete college?
I think how most the world gets caught up on the whole must complete college thing is bullshit, the world is changing and is not working how it used to. College is not the be all, end all, it's just so hard when you have society as a whole, but especially your parents (or parent) believing so strongly that it is the be all, end all.
Too me college education while still important to me, is not as important as getting a career that makes me happy, where I look forward to go to work every day with a huge smile on my face.
Making a lot of money, enough to support myself and family, and treat them and myself to the luxuries of life, as well as give back to those less fortunate is what is most important, and IDC how I get there, as long as I get there, and to me college isn't necessary in most the paths, and well I wish it wasn't necessary for all the paths, and maybe one day it will not be.
Certain jobs should always require a high college degree, teaching being one of them, for most subjects. That said as for most other jobs, it should all be skill based, and I do not think the employer should even look at the academic history of the person they are looking to hire.
I could go on forever about this (shocking right, haha), but to sum this all up, I will just say I think it is BULLSHIT (that's putting it kindly) that in many ways, in many cases, I am unable to be successful for 2 reasons. The fact I do not have money to get any of my ideas started and off the ground (yea a few work arounds for that, but let's leave those out of the equation for now)
and the fact that I am surrounded by a TON of people that will never, ever let me live down not graduating from college with at least a bachelors degree. And that shit is doing so much additional damage to me, and holding me back so much further than I should be, but no-one could ever understand that, especially the people who are pushing so hard for my "success" in their eyes.
If they just let me go for my success in my eyes years back, instead of pushing me towards shit I can't do for multiple reasons, and shit that literally has almost killed me multiple times (me and school of any sort do not mix well, and we'll leave it at that). Then who the fuck knows where I would be right now, definitely no-where near the bullshit life I am living right now. That said of course not everything wrong in my life can be blamed on others, but honestly about 80% of it easily can! =/
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